Waking up one day to realize you have never taken an active role in your own life, and therefore are now living a life that everyone else chose for you/that is defined by not choices you made, but by the ones uou didn't make.. That you're trapped by that situation and there's no realistic way out of it. Wishing you had never woken up in the first place because at least before, you didn't know you were trapped, and were therefore at least not un happy. But now that you are ready to start making decisions for yourself, you can't. Because you financially cannot afford it, you have three kids depending on you, you have no help, and you have burned all your helpful bridges. You have no idea where to turn. You have no skills with any monetary value. Even if you did, you are trapped at home anyway because you have no affordable childcare.
Trapped.
Unhappy.
Dysphoric.
Wishing you could at least afford mental health care, but you don't even have enough money to afford any extras in life, and certainly not the $210 an hour that it costs.
